November 11, 2007

here's one thing that's been on my mind lately...

the disappearing black ceo...not that i knew how many there are before i read the article...and not that i have any coherent thoughts about the state of black ceo's...i find it odd...or maybe...less than coincidental...that two of them got run out on rails...in the space of a week...i don't know all the details...perhaps they deserved the axe...it's the timing i find suspect...if only i knew who wins when black ceo's get humiliated in public...

(BTW...i'll have something to say about mr mailer when i finally finish one of his books..)

October 13, 2007

i've missed a lot...you've missed a lot...

since last you heard from me...this is what's happened...since we last parted...a minor...and i do mean minor...health scare...the unsurprising...yet inevitable...existential crisis...the job shuffle...(again)...the new addition (nephew style)...the new addition (pet style)...the summer escape...more cheerleading...and my growing reading list...let's promise to meet back here...soon...and never let this happen again...

June 13, 2007

son chapter 2 sneek peek...

here's a look at the new artwork for the next chapter of the son serial novel...yes, in glorious color...thank you justin coombs...that's some kick ass work...



look for it this fall...

June 9, 2007

i feel just like this...


it's blurry...i know...click on it and go read it in high res glory...

good times last night...we missed you...


andy jammed out...


shoun did his thing...


robert blew us all away...


and this guy had something to say...

June 1, 2007

check out my marketing genius...

all 5 of you...



it won't be the same without you..

April 29, 2007

randomness...

the reading list...an update...



i wanted to like this one...i really did...i gave it more than my traditional 50 page...grace period...but i kept having to skip over the parts that had nothing to do with the crime part of the story...some find this part of the book charming...i just found it boring...i have given up on it...

i have replaced it with this:



my first Vonnegut...and i call myself literate...a very good aquantaince suggested it...she was an english major...she's got to know something right...?...

anyway...i'm enjoying it...so far...

I have also added:



and...



i'm a glutton...

in other news...

how does a grown man get a zit...on his elbow...?...

April 28, 2007

well...that was fun...

let's do it again...sometime...sooner, rather than later...I'll have to put something together...

April 25, 2007

so, you've written a book...what's next...

i suppose i should...

promote it somehow...



tell people where to get a copy...



start researching the next book...

work on a project with a friend...

and take some time to learn how to use one of my new cameras...

April 2, 2007

i haven't done that since college...

anyone still out here...helllloooo...well, it's done...of course...my 100 hour plan turned into...a 200 hour plan...and i spent the last 72 hours wraping things up...give me a couple of days to finalize the design...covers, layout, etc...and i'll post it on Lulu...HEEEELLLLLOOOOOOO...anyone???

February 25, 2007

i learned something today...

there are only 850 words that make up the basis of basic english...somehow...i already knew that...

what i learned was...the term basic english...is also an official title for...one of the many languages people purposefully created...as opposed to the living languages...that constantly evolve...on our tongues...and in our ears...

now i've heard of esperanto...but...i knew nothing about it...especially...that it's part of...over 100 years of human effort to create...something like a universal language...this new information...fascinates me...

digging a little deeper...i discover this effort is not limited to business and politics...but also includes...more imaginative...endeavors...

somewhere down the line...i can see myself really diving...furthur...into this subject...

btw...update on bsb...10 chapters left...

February 12, 2007

it had to happen...

i knew this day was coming...

i hoped later...rather than...now...

i have to stop drinking...my body...my liver, to be exact...

has had enough...well...it was inevitable...

February 7, 2007

and then...one day...it clicks...

after over a year of germinating a single idea...a few random words from a theatre review...and a very powerful essay by a soldier...suddenly...i know what the novel i want to write is going to be about...

February 5, 2007

herculean...

well...they finally got around to clearing some of the snow out of our neighborhood...

see below...



it's hard to grasp what a monumental effort it is to clear the whole city until you get up close...





that's about a foot of ice...rutted ice...


it took all day...but they got most of it..

January 31, 2007

a confession...an inspiration...

i have never read norman mailer...on it's face, not such an egregious crime...as a matter of fact...some might consider it a blessing...

what with all the promotion his new book book is getting...and how he's being lauded as...the last of the tough guy writers...

given who i am...and what i claim to be...you'd think it would be a cardinal sin to miss out on one of the writers rooted in the same family tree as...papa hemingway...hank...and the good dr...

well...i still don't feel like i'm missing out on anything...then i come across these words...

"If we think of a world without novels—which is coming to pass—then existence will become more technological, and more filled with all the handmaidens of technology."

and i re-think my assertion...so...in an act of complete futility...let's add another book to the mountain of reading i've assigned myself this year...this one will do...



we'll see...

speaking of being moved by the words of others...when i read these sentences...

"Some images are so horrifying that they worm themselves into your brain and lodge there forever, no matter how hard you work to expel them. You have to walk your conscious thoughts carefully around these images because they can hurl you into madness."

i was forced to consider the truth of the first part...and whether or not i considered the second part to be...wisdom or foolishness...and how much i would love to explore these ideas in a story...

January 29, 2007

great...another toy for me to play with...



good news is...8 chapters...in the pocket...gotta keep marching...

January 28, 2007

man brunch...or...mrunch...



ms scribe and her lady friends gathered this morning for brunch...so we the husbands and boyfriends decided to have our own brunch...man brunch...mrunch...

now it's no mystery that i'm socially inept...one on one...i'm good to go...performing in front of a group...no problem...in a group of three or more...i'm an idiot...

but i try...anyway...

so i end up opening my mouth...and thinking...what the hell did i just say...is it possible to say something more inane...i mean...tv shows...websites...movies...bullshit...

i'd much rather keep my mouth shut...

then i'm unsocial...aloof...arrogant...

chit chat...it's a no win game...fuck it...

pen and paper never fail me...

January 27, 2007

my two cents...

ms scribe has been following the story of danny and nina...and their move to denver...she's been telling me about it for weeks...so...please allow me to be the millionth person to say...welcome to denver...as a transplant new yorker...allow me to offer...some unsolicited advice...

so you're looking for a place to stay...

i've lived all over denver...and the best neighborhood i can recommend...is city park...you've been over there...if you took a walk around...you might have seen it's charms...

but definitely stay away from capitol hill...i know...it's affordable...all the cool kids live there...it's denver's version of brooklyn...believe me...it's no brooklyn...you may have noticed...

[editor's note: no, the highlands is denver's brooklyn...capitol hill is denver's...L.E.S....the baker neighborhood is denver's...west village...and lodo is...oh fuck it...]

btw...you may also have noticed...a dearth of...um...ethnicities...maybe not...maybe this comforts you...well then, welcome home...

food and drink...

there are plenty of bars in denver...more than a few of them are great bars...i'm sure you've already been given a list of...all the hip places...but if i could only recommend one...my pick would be...my brother's bar...best burgers and beer in town...

that's an easy one...especially this year...the 50th anniversary of...on the road...

btw...did you know our that esteemed mayor made his bones...in the bar business...i love this town...

culture...

you've already been acquainted with westword...good move...if you want to know what's going on in denver...there's no better place to start...but...these folks are always good for some of the best events in town...

btw...we missed you last night at my buddy's book reading...

getting around...

coming from new york, you might miss a really good mass transit system...it's getting better...and you can live here without a car...i managed to make it work for over five years...

btw...if you find yourself trapped in traffic...make sure your radio is tuned to 1190 am...yes, the best music on the airwaves is am...even if you like jazz music...

January 26, 2007

watch'u doin' tonight...?



btw...what was the over/under on how long it would take for me to bail on the daily posting...

good news is...progress on my book is moving well...

January 21, 2007

it's official...

i am tired of all this fucking snow...

January 20, 2007

who needs a drink...


i got my three chapters in for the week....so ms scribe and i rewarded ourselves by going to see...children of men...um...damn...allow me to be the billionth person to say...you gotta see this movie...

January 18, 2007

by the numbers...

i've got 23,000+ words...to edit and revise...and break into 30 chapters...maybe 32...whats that work out to...three chapters a week...plus layout and design...yeah...10 weeks should do it...

January 17, 2007

born again...hard...

here's the deal...i've got my own 100 hour program...10 weeks...march 31...the burnsizzlebleed book will be done...period...stay posted...

January 16, 2007

resolved...

i should be dancing with nouns and verbs...not wrestling with ones and zeroes...this is my lesson from the past three days...i like the whole video mash up thing...it's fun...and it challenges my creativity...but it's just a hobby, and i'm allowing that to get in the way of the real thing...the words...

so...the a/v portion of the site is gonna have to go dark...at least until i finish the bsb book...

onward...

January 15, 2007

worth the wait...?



i won't go into what a saga this was...it's still needs work...i owe ya...two...enjoy...

[updated for yo azz]...

January 12, 2007

two books i left off my reading list for the year...

one because i've already read it, but i want to reread it for the 50th anniversary...


the other is because i finished it the day i made the list...


it's shoun's new book...and it's a mindfuck supreme...i hear tell, he wrote the entire thing on nicotine, gin and speed...or was it smack...

i lied a little bit there...just a little...

i highly recommend this one...it's for the kids...you know...

anyway...

i'll be reading parts of shoun's book in two weeks...along with a fine cast of others...here's a flyer

see ya there...

January 11, 2007

some politics...and a joke...

please allow me to step up on my little soap box and announce the obvious...once again...mr bush blew it...what really was the point of his speech last light...the decision has already been made...action already taken...congress can only make symbolic efforts against it...so the whole point of making a speech...was to build popular and political support for his actions...and he blew it...

mr bush...i never believed in your war...and now that we're in it...the so called new tactics you propose...to take neighborhoods and hold them...traditional combat tactics...is just too late...

it's too late for your legacy...it's too late for your credibility...it's too late...

and now...levity...

rabbi samuelson...young and charismatic...is entertaining a job offer from a synagogue across town...out of respect to his current congregation he calls a meeting at the temple...to discuss the matter...it quickly becomes obvious that they don't want him to leave...and during the meeting...a man stands up and says...i'll give you an extra $30,000 for every year you stay...

another man stands up...milo, the guy who owns a car dealership...and shouts...i'll give you any car on my lot...a murmur runs through the crowd...the rabbi is so overwhelmed by so much generosity...he's stunned silent...

then old mrs cohen stands up...and says...i'll have sex with you...everyone gasps and looks at her...old man cohen slinks down in his chair, embarrassed...he whispers...dolores, what are you doing...

what do you mean...you said fuck the rabbi...

January 10, 2007

yep, it's stock show time...

in nyc, they get the midnight circus parade...here we get this...














there were actual black folks in this stage coach...

January 9, 2007

Dear Steve Jobs...


thank you...

around the horn...



my cousin eddie is leaving for iraq...this is his second tour...he's been doing what he does for a long time...he's well trained...and battle tested...i'm not worried about him...yet...i wish him well...

he's part of a deployment that some are speculating is in preparation for an attack on iran...iraq, iran...this is an example of how mr bush...and his cohort...do business...weeks...even months...before making a case to the american people...the descision has already been made...and the order executed...they don't care about the will of the people...this is about bush's so called legacy...the whole crew of them are the picture perfect definition of the word...hubris...

i'll be keeping an eye on this...

in completely unrelated events...

most of you have already heard that this year marks the 50th anniversary of kerouac's on the road...there are events planned all year to commemorate it...last weekend ms scribe and i went to see the scroll and attend a tribute to hunter s. thompson at the library...who was influenced by kerouac...


as tributes go...i don't know how well this one went...i don't go to these kinds of things very often...and this event reminded me why...

in attendance...the usual gathering of hiperatti...coffeshop bohos...barstool philosphers...and slumming academe...including myself...surprisingly, not the only black face in the crowd....

there were readings by hunter's son juan, anita, his wife and his 8 year old grandson will...

with musical accompaniment by david amram...whhaaat...you wouldn't dress up a picasso with disco lighting...mr amram is accomplished in his own right...buti'm not confident this is something mr thompson would stand behind...

in case you couldn't make it to the cannon scatering of hunter's ashes...or can't get enough of that kind of memorilaizing...
there was plenty of it on display here...the whole thing was a morbid sort of wake...

things managed to liven up...or as anita thompson put it...upped the fun factor...whenever any of thompson's work was read....

which is why i tend not to go to things like this...you want to pay tribute to an author...buy and read her work...

when it comes to H.S.T. what a lot of people forget...it's not about the partying and drugs...it's not about the guns, or the violent speed of fast cars and motorcyles...it's certainly not about the celebrity...it's about the words...the words...the words...

January 8, 2007

tales from an unrepentant...inveterate...degenerate (pt 1)...

in which i tell the tale of some of the best poker i've ever played...so far...


i arrived at a home in the furthest reaches of southwest denver suburbs...not far from... this correctional facility...why the hell is it that i often find myself out in the hinterlands chasing down a card game...why is it that i know no one inside the boundaries of the city that takes poker seriously...ah well...you go where the game is...

i walked in prepared for a small stakes cash game...i found...a suburban home set up for a home style tournament...if you've played a home game in the last 5 years you've been to one of these...the living room and dining room are both taken over by large tables...somewhere in the house there is a table of candy, salty snacks, maybe pizza...and if it's a real class set up...sandwiches...

if you've done this before...and you know this next part by heart...just skip over the next paragraph...

there are a usually dozen or more men littering the house...waiting for the collection of buy-ins, the assignment of seats, and distribution of chips...these rituals are usually handled in the same manner...the same cards from two suits are pulled from a deck...one card from one suit is distributed at each chair...the corresponding cards from the other suit are mixed up in a face down pile in the middle of the table...after chips are counted...each man...and i do mean men, because every one of these kinds of gatherings I've been to have been exclusively male...picks a card from the face down pile and finds the seat with the matching card...we take our seats...while the house rules are covered...blinds...when they go up...chip denominations...what's the cut off for being in the money...minimum bets...minimum raises...cards are shuffled...and introductions are made...then the players draw cards to see who deals first...high card deals...when all that's done...then we actually get to play cards...

on this night that means i sat at a table with the host and five of his friends...decent enough guys...

did i need to mention that i was the only black man in the room...somehow i think you already knew that...and i don't know if it was that...or the fact that i was the new guy in the room...that led to the tension...but i soon found out...

anyway...our table was tight...a few heavy hands were played... but it was mostly small pots while we figured each other out...or maybe they were trying to figure me out...meanwhile at the other table...one guy was already out after 15 minutes...

i stayed loose...i played when i had good cards...and sometimes i pushed to find peoples tendencies...i was doing well...then i looked a guy up when i thought he was bluffing...i was semi bluffing...and drew two pair...chasing after a boat...and the other guy caught his flush...

when it came time to combine tables...the last 10 players...i was the short stack...a few hands later...the blinds went up...my back against the wall, i went all in...with marginal cards...and i was done...it was time to wait with three other guys so we could put together what some people call the losers table... i think of it as the money table...normally, it's winner take all...with more cash up for grabs than the third place player in the tournament gets ...

so i watched them play...and waited...

the guy who had been the gorilla at the table...the big stack...the one everyone was playing like they were afriad of him...the host just whittled him down...and busted him out...in less than an hour...now we had a fifth player for our table...

(don't miss part 2...it has...anger...confusion...shattering loss...bone weary battle...and gunz yo!...the whole shebang...)

January 7, 2007

why doesn't anyone play cash games anymore...

that was the hardest fought $50 i've ever seen...i'm just glad that i'm the one who won it...

January 6, 2007

so you want a blog post...

really...well...this is where things get interesting...how do i slip one in...in the slim amount of time i have before the poker game tonight...i know...let's review my elementary poker principles...

1...attack, attack, attack....it's not mine, i know...but it makes good sense...

2...lie always...bluff rarely...no one needs to know what you have...but when you show cards...they better be good...

3...dare...this is really more of a reminder of the first principle...because there's no such thing as too aggressive...at the poker table...

4...pay attention...it's the only way to know who the fish is at the table...and when you don't know that...well you know what they say...

5...practice and prepare...you don't get good by just watching poker on tv...or reading about it...you have to play...and play...and play...

ante up...

January 5, 2007

5 for friday...

inspired by darby...via rake

1...book i've already started...and hope to finish...maybe...


2...books people have recommended/given to me that i (still) might not get to this year...



3...books i have no business reading...but i probably will...even though they'll feel like homework...




4...books i somehow stumbled on and would really like to read...someday...





5...books i snatched off my father's bookshelf...that i guarantee i will at least open this year...






and the only book i know i will finish...at least once...this year...